I lost myself once in a dark room with covered windows and familiar pillows…and it always seemed like the most important things we ever said we’re things that were spoken three inches from each others face. Why that seemed important to me I will never know, I only find it as a constant reminder of how penetrating intimacy can be on a level that only exists behind closed doors.
Run fall, run again. Fall again. Rinse repeat.
When life feels like you are walking backwards, that probably means you are moving in the wrong direction.
There are reasons why you are there, and I am here. Although some people can never look back and see where they have been – I’ve seen enough for the both of us. The rocks don’t even bother me as much, since it has all been a well earned stumble. I wish it would of been easier, for then – and now, for you.
“If Tom had learned anything… it was that you can’t ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that’s all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence… Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There’s no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now.” -500DaysOfSummer
“Some people cannot and will not ever end up together, even if they do love each other. It’s a sad truth, but a truth, nonetheless.
“The fact is, love is not enough. All those fairytales, all those stories and movies you’ve heard and watched growing up, lied to you. Love is never enough because love is not rational.”
“Chances are, you both have bruises that have never fully healed and likely will never fully heal. And that’s just something you decided that you’ll have to live with. Why?”
“Because you really don’t have any other options. You just hope that the two of you find others to love so you can think about each other less and so you don’t have to worry about her happiness anymore.”
“You wait in hopes that new love can take the place of the old — which it can. But that doesn’t mean you will ever stop loving each other. Some people will love each other until the day they die, spending the majority of their lives apart. And so is the darker side of love.”
“Each of us is aware he’s a material being, subject to the laws of physiology and physics, and that the strength of all our emotions combined cannot counteract those laws. It can only hate them. The eternal belief of lovers and poets in the power of love which is more enduring than death, the finis vitae sed non amoris that has pursued us through the centuries is a lie. But this lie is not ridiculous, it’s simply futile.”
― Stanisław Lem, Solaris
Concept layout design for Apples For Eyes ‘CoNTrol’ CD using imagery from 1972 Solaris.
Hari and Kris Kelvin, Solaris 1972 – I used this image for some of the CD Layout designs.
Original 1972 Solaris Poster
Poster work with several ‘Solaris 72’ Images.
As I write music I also work with visual designs usually at the same time. It helps me round out ideas, and give more depth to anything I set to publish. Sound is only one-dimensional so in order for myself to achieve the level of emphasis that I think any great story deserves (real or fiction) – eyes and ears are required to write out their own interpretations as they see due.
Above are a few things I have worked with over 2013-2014, some layout compositions and things I may be using with the current CD ‘CoNTrol’. Mostly a tribute to the aforementioned film of course, and all that comes with that.
“I had no hope. Yet expectation lived on in me, the last thing she had left behind. What further consummations, mockeries, torments did I still anticipate? I had no idea as I abided in the unshaken belief that the time of cruel wonders was not yet over.”
― Stanisław Lem, Solaris
Almost always when I write lately the music stems exclusively from an acoustic guitar piece first, then It becomes translated into louder electric or distorted sound. So when I am working on laying down tracks that are more aggressive, the original bearing of the music when it was written becomes lost and or turned into something else. In all actuality the original just doesn’t exist anymore, when you start doing overdubs along with adding drums etc. Usually weeks after I have put down ten or so tracks of the song I will go back and pick up the acoustic guitar and re experience the medley the way it came out, most often very simple and very quiet.
This song ‘Stars And Floors’ I wrote about a month ago, mostly finished it up for the record ‘CoNTrol’, and have yet to have the album version published for the fact I wanted to finish the collection of songs before I share them. I was sitting in my living room re playing the song as it appeared in my head and decided to set up some gear and just see what rolled. It’s weird that sometimes just going and recording something, with very little planning on what it could turn into seems scary, but occasionally you would be surprised at how the ‘un structured, just do it’ mentally can actually produce. I’ve spent weeks on songs that I was really never happy with, and can go and lunge into a song and blast out 6 tracks at 5am under no sleep, hung over, or wired on red bull and be mostly content with never re touching it at all. I guess it’s the energy, maybe unbridled, or the fight or flight for me that just has to get it out right then and there, so that I can finally rest.
It’s capturing that, that becomes rare – and I wish I could do it every time. Maybe I’d be a better artist then, or maybe that’s really asking too much.
This version of ‘Stars And Floors’ was done in about 5 takes, 4 tracks – 2 guitars and 2 vocals recorded with just one SM58. Simple, clean, and no flash – just bash.
Was doing some writing research last week and I ran across a site that had some alternative movie posters for the film HER. I was quite amazed at some of the ideas that were put together by these artists so I decided to build one myself.
The movie is fantastic, probably will be my favorite brain candy of 2014, and maybe even beyond that. It was good to see a story with many layers that really unearths the loneliness of a new age. Scarlett Johanasson was the perfect voice for the AI ‘Samantha’, which is why I had to include her lips on the layout.